..Its more than unfair, its cruel, that when every minute of your day is a desperate war against your own poisoned thoughts and memories that are relentlessly trying to destroy you inside, what is looked to as a fail safe escape, sleep, only hurls you into a nightmare of a world that dumps you at the feet of every fear and emotion you have just fought so fiercely to stamp out...where is there left to go when the only guaranteed "escape" is really just a hell where everything youre running from is waiting.. and ready to put you at its mercy..